Kids, don't do this at home
A couple of you may know that a couple of weeks back, I hurt my back.
Some of you already know that I have back problems, but for those who don't, when I was a kid, somehow, my back became dislocated. My spine has been realigned before, but because the muscles in my back are too weak to hold my spine in the correct place, it slips back out again. For the most part, my dislocated back doesn't impede me. I admit that I haven't been entirely hardworking in fixing my back, but it had become better from the yoga that I'd been doing most Saturdays. Unfortunately, yoga classes are no longer being held, but that's another story.
The current spine injury, on the other hand, is persistent. I thought I had recovered from the injury, but in reality, it lies there quietly before it suddenly strikes with short, sharp pain. I can significantly feel my range of movement collapse on itself. When it's particularly painful (as it was today), it's always incredibly startling having normal, everyday movements like getting out of bed become physically difficult, and the rest of the day becomes... cautious. Withdrawn, as I try not to aggravate the pain again.
I guess in it's yet another reason I need to take care of my health more; it's harder to feel happy when the physical body is sickly.
It's kind of strange, but I used to really feel good after a piano lesson. I still do, actually, but these days... I guess it's kind of tinged with "I don't deserve these compliments" because I don't really... practice very much. I feel like I'm not putting in the work to deserve such praise. And I guess, once again, I'm falling into the same old trap of cruising on talent. On a related note, I've definitely gotten better about motivation and keeping up with uni work, but at the same time... every now and again, I have trippy dreams with a common theme: that I'm stumbling around lost, and I'm trying to find my way out.
... I wish the country travelling toilet was real, though.
Edit: Also, I really dislike the feeling that I'm doing something wrong in my RP tags, but I can't quite pinpoint what exactly is wrong :|a
Some of you already know that I have back problems, but for those who don't, when I was a kid, somehow, my back became dislocated. My spine has been realigned before, but because the muscles in my back are too weak to hold my spine in the correct place, it slips back out again. For the most part, my dislocated back doesn't impede me. I admit that I haven't been entirely hardworking in fixing my back, but it had become better from the yoga that I'd been doing most Saturdays. Unfortunately, yoga classes are no longer being held, but that's another story.
The current spine injury, on the other hand, is persistent. I thought I had recovered from the injury, but in reality, it lies there quietly before it suddenly strikes with short, sharp pain. I can significantly feel my range of movement collapse on itself. When it's particularly painful (as it was today), it's always incredibly startling having normal, everyday movements like getting out of bed become physically difficult, and the rest of the day becomes... cautious. Withdrawn, as I try not to aggravate the pain again.
I guess in it's yet another reason I need to take care of my health more; it's harder to feel happy when the physical body is sickly.
It's kind of strange, but I used to really feel good after a piano lesson. I still do, actually, but these days... I guess it's kind of tinged with "I don't deserve these compliments" because I don't really... practice very much. I feel like I'm not putting in the work to deserve such praise. And I guess, once again, I'm falling into the same old trap of cruising on talent. On a related note, I've definitely gotten better about motivation and keeping up with uni work, but at the same time... every now and again, I have trippy dreams with a common theme: that I'm stumbling around lost, and I'm trying to find my way out.
... I wish the country travelling toilet was real, though.
Edit: Also, I really dislike the feeling that I'm doing something wrong in my RP tags, but I can't quite pinpoint what exactly is wrong :|a